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11 November 2004 @ 04:37 am
i am fucking dying. i can't even describe how sick i am. i'm going to decapitate myself.
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09 November 2004 @ 11:03 pm
i am completely and totally unable to maintain a successful relationship. with anyone. ever.
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09 November 2004 @ 02:40 am
i love college. but sometimes i look around at the rich, preppy, southern, private university that i attend and i wonder what the hell i am doing here.
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04 November 2004 @ 01:53 am
i could complain and yell and be angry. but i won't.

i worked my ass off for this election...and it's something that i will never forget. i slaved away for hours and hours, but all the while i made amazing new friends and learned so much about myself and what *i* stand for.

obviously, it was a blower of a night. the democrats lost every seat they ran for except for one in illinois and one in colorado. it's hard to accept. tom daschle is no longer senator of south dakota and that fact alone brings tears to my eyes. but...life goes on.

i am SO glad i went home for election night. being with my dad made it so much easier to handle. we stayed up the entire night watching cnn. and when things looked the worst, he told me stories of the past to reassure me that it will all get better. he told me about the work he did on the robert kennedy primary campaign, only to have him be assassinated right after sealing the democratic nomination. he told me how, though it seemed impossible, we did make it through the nixon era, the reagan era...and we will persevere again. even if it seems like we won't...we will.

i got back here to elon at around 1pm. i think i said one word to lauren before passing out, and slept until about 30 minutes ago. i am drained, mentally, physically, and emotionally. but with absolutely no regrets.

morgan wrote this in her lj. it was just about the nicest thing anyone could say to me at a time like this and i love her so much:
"Ps...I love you Melissa...of all people I know this was the hardest! And I want you to know I think all the work you did on this whole election thing was so cool. The fact that you stand for something that strongly and that you weren't mean about it...I respect that so much! I love ya hunie!!!

like i already said, i have no regrets whatsoever. working on the kerry/edwards 2004 campaign is something that i will remember for the rest of my life and will always have a special place in my heart. it gave me something to believe in and a direction in my life when i felt lost. and despite the turnout, i will always look back on this time of my life with many fond memories.

kerry/edwards 2004. we fought the good fight.
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: all you need is love.
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21 October 2004 @ 04:40 pm
haha. i love being loved.
Current Mood: unloved
Current Music: tell me who should i be?
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these past few days have been some of the most amazing of my life.

on saturday afternoon, at around 4:30pm, i left staley 305, got in my car, and proceeded to head north. i drove from elon, north carolina all the way to towson, maryland. according to mapquest, this is a 358 mile drive. when i finally made it to towson university, katie and i had a lot of trouble finding eachother. but when we did, it was a great feeling. you don't realize how much you really miss people until you see them again. we hung out in her dorm for the night and got ready for what would be a crazy sunday.

sunday morning we woke up and attempted to do some homework before we left. katie got some done, but i just played freecell. we left towson university at 3:30pm, made a quick stop at 7-11 for some food, and then headed off toward pittsburgh. since katie loves to drive, she drove my car the entire way there. on the way there, we had some crazy encounters. we saw funny looking yellow motorcycles, parade floats, and lots of bush bumper stickers which we would always yell at. we passed through a place called breezewood. there had been so many signs for it on highway that katie hated it before we even got there. we then got on the penna turnpike and immediately got cut off by a chrystler mini van. it kept changing lanes in front of us and we got really mad at it. but eventually we tag-teamed and we used him to steer us through traffic.

after driving for 251 miles, we made it into pittsburgh at 7:30 or so. pittsburgh is a gorgeous city at night. we got lost as soon as we got into the city. we ended up in a neighboorhood that looked out over the city and asked some girls for directions. we followed them and still got lost. finally after asking about 24986924 people for directions, we made it to the a.j. palumbo center, dressed in really really cute outfits. it was after 8 at this point, so we were afraid that we had missed the beginning of incubus's set. it turned out that they hadn't started yet. the palumbo center is tiny. so even though our seats were far away, they were actually really close.

incubus finally came on, and it was the most amazing feeling in the world. it seems so crazy that we traveled 250 miles just to see a band in concert, but as soon as they started playing it made me realize how much i adore incubus and how i would travel as far as i could to see them.

they started out with pistola, which we knew would be the opening song. we danced and went crazy. katie snuck her digital camera in and took pictures and videos, some of which didn't come out well because of the crazy lighting and because the guy in front of her had a big head. the other two guys in front of us were hilarious and danced like crazy. a few rows down there was a girl in a yellow shirt and she was the most annoying and stupid person i've ever seen. i can't even describe how she acted, but it drove me crazy. anyway. they played pistola, nice to know you, and then idiot box!!!!!! i LOVE that song and i'm so glad they played it. after that came wish you were here, just a phase, stellar...and i don't remember what came after that. they also played vitamin, beware! criminal, sick sad little world, talk show on mute, made for tv movie, megalomaniac and drive.

katie and i had looked at previous setlists and we saw that they usually played southern girl and pardon me for the encore. so they left and then came back out. southern girl was the first song they played, as expected. then we were like, "okay, here comes pardon me, that's cool." but instead they played a certain shade of green. and we FLIPPED OUT. i screamed like a 12 year old. this might be my favorite incubus song of all time. it seemed so appropriate that we traveled so far and they ended the show with our very favorite song.

once it was all over, we headed back to the car. katie wanetd to drive again, which i was very happy about. we saw boyd street on the way back, even though it was completely dark. katie knew where it was because she is psychic. we made it back to towson at around 3am. by that time we were exhausted, but still on this crazy sort of high. we had traveled hours to see incubus. it was probably the craziest thing i've ever done before. but it was so worth it.

i woke up at 9ish by diana jumping on me. we hung around for a few hours and i finally left around 11:30am. i needed gas and got off at the white oak exit to get it. seeing home was a strange feeling. it made me miss it terribly, but at the same time i was excited to go back to north carolina. the rest of the ride was boring. i got back to elon at 5pm and immediately fell asleep for a few hours.

to sum it all up: driving a total of 1300 miles just to go to an incubus concert was probably the craziest thing i've ever done in my life. but it was also one of the greatest things i've ever done. i'm so glad katie and i did this together, because it's something we'll remember for the rest of our lives.

i have two papers due this morning. if i were a sensible person, i would have stayed here this weekend and worked on them. but instead i took a road trip to pennsylvania with an amazing girl. it was an incredible experience and it was totally worth it.

melissa + katie + incubus = love.
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: love is a verb here in my room.
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09 October 2004 @ 02:31 pm
road trip time.

be back monday.
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03 October 2004 @ 05:32 pm
To pick up betterthanthat: Baicarumba...are those real?

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02 October 2004 @ 10:47 pm
i love whitney. she listened to me whine, complain, curse, and smoke cigarettes last night. and it was just so awesome to have someone listen to you and reassure you that everything is gonna be okay.

today i saw a mommy duck by the lake and she had like 10 tiny duckies. they were so small that at first i thought they were leaves. it was so adorable.

also, today i received a card saying that i'm registered to vote here in alamance county, AND my absentee ballot from moco. i'm going to vote here in NC though. kerry's got maryland. even though he doesn't have a shot in NC, i'd rather vote somewhere where he could use it.

speaking of, this college democrats shit has me so stressed. i volunteered to run the elections committee. and wow. i've got so much work to do.

right. yeah. the food in harden...it does something to you. and not anything good.
Current Mood: energeticenergetic
Current Music: you make me wanna LA LA!
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29 September 2004 @ 01:20 am
so i am the biggest idiot on earth, and here is why:

yesterday i got to college democrats late, and the door was locked (i later learned that the wind had blown it shut). another guy was there, a REALLYREALLYREALLY HOT GUY, and he was locked out too. this was our conversation:

me: well, so much for that.
really hot guy: well do you want to go get something to eat instead?
me: no, i've got a lot of homework.


i don't know what i was thinking. i am a loser.
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: death cab
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27 September 2004 @ 03:11 pm
from sunday:

me: dude i slept until 3pm today.
lauren: that's because you were stoned off your ass last night!

oh yes. saturday night. oh yes.
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: incubus!!
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20 September 2004 @ 12:36 am
maybe i'm a vindictive little bitch, but i hope to see everyone miserable in college. IT'S NOT HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE, KIDS! can you survive in the real world? i doubt it.



wharthoes in paris. we'll take over the world.
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12 September 2004 @ 02:06 am
a certain someone.
if you read this, and you know who you are..
thanks for being SUCH a good friend to me.
i'll always remember you for sticking by me,
and standing up for me.

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10 September 2004 @ 03:15 pm
hit the ground,
weighed down again
you walked out
but i'm sure you're my friend

it must have been good
this can't be for good
everyone's ...
is everyone ok

i waited.
but i must be too dumb to be proud
because i waited, i waited.

woke to sounds
i prayed you were there
i fell back down
but i'm sure you still care.

it took me so long to get up the nerve to say everything i said to you last night. finally, i got two years of emotions off of my chest. but it doesn't feel as good as i thought it would.

but i must be too dumb to be proud.
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08 September 2004 @ 11:56 am
our dorm room is haunted. no joke.
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28 August 2004 @ 04:13 pm
staley 305 is the fucking place to be.
too bad we can't figure out how to work the tv.

more to come...maybe.
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26 August 2004 @ 06:50 am
i'm leaving for college. oh my god. i can't believe it. where did the summer go?

i'm leaving the house i've lived in for my entire 18 years. i'm going to live in a brand new place. i'm so scared. and excited. fuck i don't know even know what to write. i haven't yet fully comprehended the fact that i will no longer live here in maryland. i'm not ready. i'm ready. aekjbeajkbehdahujkegdjilkrhr. this makes no sense. i don't know what to think.

but one thing i know for sure is that i am terrified of growing up.
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: rilo kiley
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25 August 2004 @ 01:47 am
today is my last day at home.
tomorrow i leave for elon.
tomorrow i finally meet lauren.
friday i move into my dorm.
friday i officially become a college student.

summer went by so fast. but for the first time in my life, i'm so happy to be starting school. don't get me wrong, i'm definitely nervous, but more excited than anything.

i've had to say so many goodbyes. i'm awful at it. ali came over and we talked for hours. i won't see him until january. it's going to be so strange to not see the same faces all the time. but i'm ready for it. i'm definitely ready.
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: yo la tengo
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22 August 2004 @ 04:49 pm
three days until i leaaaaaaave!
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14 August 2004 @ 06:28 am
well obviously i'm back from california.
while in pasadena, I WALKED RIGHT BY DAVE FROM PARADISE HOTEL. it was unbelievably exciting. and yes, he's just as ugly in person!!

this morning i had the worst headache of my life and was convinced that my brain was hemorrhaging. but it went away eventually, since i am still alive. hahaha. i'm so stupid.

i've already had to say goodbye to some of my favorite people, and it fucking sucks. i'm ready to get the hell out of here, but there are certain people who i'm going to have a hard time being without. and there are other people who i want to say goodbye to but know that i won't have the opportunity to do so. c'est la vie.

in 3 hours or so i leave for boston. i'll be there for a week!!!!!!! so call or text or whatever. 3018023229.

13 days to elon. i can't fucking wait.
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Current Music: wilco